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I spent last night doing my nightly routine of sitting on the windowsill, just looking out into the night. I was looking through my memory box, and i realised i did not manage to throw everything about us away – there were some that were still in there, waiting to be reminisced.
I miss everything we had and more importantly, i miss him. And this seems to ring true in every aspect.. (except for the last bit)
Where have i gone wrong that it is so hard for me to get over the past? It's very frustrating, to say the least. I don't understand why i cry and still hope that he'll come back, when i know he doesnt even harbour feelings for me anymore and YET i still do it.
Nanananana does anyone have tips on how to get over shit fast? I need to concentrate on my studies niaaaaa.
And i just hate it when my brain tells me that we could be fine being just friends, but my heart still shouts that i still have feeling for him and THUS i shouldnt befriend him cuz it hurts abit.. Somehow..
Will you call and chat with me? I miss you.
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i realised that in that pic in ur entry, he’s always on the left & ur on the right. stylo eh? keke. anyway as for me, i locked all the “memory stuffs” in a drawer & place the key somewhere far away from my sight. well, it does help, for me at least
cubalah~
Comment by NuRuL April 14, 2006 @ 6:35 pmheyyy… it’s tough huh. i know how it feels. you’ve given so much and all you’re left with are memories that haunt you everyday. i remembered how much it hurt the last time i made the decision to walk away from a relationship – there were times i wondered how i’ll get through it and be okay again. i still don’t know how i managed but i rememebered that i took it a day at a time, kept myself busy and focused on my studies alot. nth kills a sad memory better than an econs essay. stay strong and you’ll get through this. you’ll manage.
i did.
Comment by idz April 14, 2006 @ 7:49 pmJust talk it out.
Get someone to listen to you about everything.
It helps.
Don’t let the heart overwhelm the mind.
Minta pada Allah swt. Ask for guidance.
Ask for enlightenment.
Most importantly, you must accept the fact that things are different now. People change. We cannot submit to the idea that things might possibly get better.
Well Faddy, the only advice I can offer is.
Just survive through it.
Live through it.
And take your time. Don’t rush through it.
Comment by arghmad April 14, 2006 @ 11:40 pmInsyaAllah.